Slut

Really, I have not been active in over 5 years. Oh my goddess. I only reveal that when I am completly anoymous. Well finally I burst and developed a full blown crush on JD Fortune the winner of the reality show RockStar INXS. That is one hot man. I got so horny that I earnstly began looking for relief. Early blog was about the cutie that got away. I have another story.

About two weeks ago I went to visit a friend and hooked up with a friend of hers (she kinda planned it.) She has been trying to hook us up for two years but I finally was so horny I drove the six hours to give it a try. He is my age and a nice guy about average looks just like me. We had a good time. It is very sexual connection which I do not think he quite gets right now.

I did give him the best freaking blow job ever in the history of the world. Really , I did. I had so much passion locked up inside of myself that needed to be released and he was the one who got the pleasure. I was glad to share it with him but now he is fallin in lust for me and I am not sure I can live up to these expectations. First of all he lives 6 hours away. It had been so long that it was nice to have it but now two weeks later I am having my doubts on the ability for this to be anything more than sex and I am afraid that he is think elseway and it my be harder to exradite myself from this thing easily. Well the six hours helps with any escape plan but I do not want to hurt him at all. Hell I already had another lover since then, what a cad I can be and I totally want to fuck JD Fortune.

I am spending the weekend with him and we shall see how it goes but man 6 hours does not bode well for me. I am just so bored at home right now. No regular man...to keep me company. Oh man I want the 26 year old grad student (see earlier blog) to call me.

I am such a fuck up!